~Day 18 - Confession~
Candles video - Night to Day
Takuto makes scratch eighteen.
Hallway - sunset
Takuto spend the entire night crying.
'Now, however, I am walking down the hallway with resolution. To meet Ryouta.'
Takuto: "Ryouta? Are you there?"
'I knock again. Soon, I heard footsteps on the other side of the door.'
Ryouta: "...Takuto..."
'Ryouta looked down when he saw me. As for me, I nudge Ryouta's shoulder.'
Takuto: "Are you free for a moment?"
Ryouta: "Eh?"
Takuto: "I want to speak with you by all means."
Ryouta: "...alright..."
'When I begin to walk, Ryouta follows a little behind. There was no speaking. I kept walking slowly. '
(Piano room)
'I bring Ryouta to the piano room. I thought that this was the best place to tell Ryouta my decision.'
Takuto: "You're favorite song...I'll play it. Are there any requests?"
Ryouta: "...Takuto?"
'I prepared the piano and began. Moreover, dust flutters faintly. I thought that no one really came here.'
Takuto: "Anything is fine. There isn't a song I can't play."
'When I see the keyboard, my mind becomes quiet with memories of my parents at the piano.'
Takuto: "Hey, a request?"
Ryouta: "Then, Over the Rainbow."
Takuto: "Eh?"
'I am surprised by the name. The keyboard is beaten again lightly while thinking.'
Ryouta: "My favorite song."
Takuto: "I didn't know."
Ryouta: "Un."
Takuto: "Why?"
Ryouta: "Takuto played it in the music room."
Takuto: "!?"
Ryouta in the piano room at sunset
'My fingers stopped. When I look at Ryouta I was surprised. His eyes narrowed mischievously.'
Ryouta: "What a face. Did you think I'd forgotten?"
'As he says so, Ryouta takes something out of his pants pocket. My school rings dangles on the phones strap.'
Ryouta: "Value?"
'Ryouta had promised to practice more on that day.'
Ryouta: "It was this song I started practicing on that day. It went to the music room after Takuto left. "
Takuto: "Ryouta."
'Ryouta lightly shakes the strap, swinging right and left, the evening light reflecting on the ring hanging from the leather strap.'
Ryouta: "Takuto, you haven't sung in a long time."
Takuto: "You..."
Ryouta: "Only I'll listen. You may...sing."
Takuto: "Understood.."
Piano keys
'I cough lightly and began to hum the lyrics I had completely memorized. I had never studied how to sing. However, I only sing unconsciously making a song.'
"Over the Rainbow"
'It was neither television nor a record, but mother's singing the first time I heard this song. What's on the other side of the rainbow? When I saw small I asked mother. 'There is happiness in the other side of the rainbow', Mother answered laughing. Then, I was not able to reach the other side of the rainbow after all. Nothing was found.'
Ryouta: "Thank you."
'The song ended before I was aware while thinking about such a thing and Ryouta's voice was heard.'
Ryouta: "I thought Takuto would surely become the vocals when I was listening to that song for the first time. Why don't you sing?"
Takuto: "No reason. I like to play more."
Ryouta: "There are many people who sing while playing the piano."
Takuto: "I don't have the dexterity to concentrate."
Ryouta: "That's a lie."
Takuto: "Hey?"
Ryouta: "Takuto is remarkable."
Ryouta: "Takuto is always casually hiding things because of me."
Takuto (embarrassed): "Such a thing..."
Ryouta: "There is such a thing, and I know. I noticed it."
Takuto: "Ryouta..."
Ryouta: "Perhaps when Takuto resigned at that bar."
Takuto: "!?"
*heartbeat/red*
Flashback of the bar
Piano room
'The event from that night crosses the mind momentarily.'
Ryouta: "[I vaguely had the intuition of applying though I was deceived only that Takuto's fight...["
Takuto: "...Ryouta."
Ryouta: "Takuto's violation--"
*Takuto slams on the piano keys*
Takuto: "Let's stop the story. "
Ryouta: "Sorry."
'Ryouta looked down. Why on earth does Ryouta say these kinds of things at such a time?'
Takuto: "This time, may I speak?"
Ryouta: "Un."
'This is the end. The decision that I made. I quietly rest my fingers on the white keyboard."'
Takuto: "Ryouta."
Ryouta: "What?"
Takuto: "You need to leave here right now and forget me."
Ryouta: "Takuto!!? Still saying such things."
'Ryouta tightly gripped my shoulder while shouting. I was surprised at his reaction. There was no disgust when my shoulder was gripped by Ryouta.'
Takuto: "It's no good."
'I averted my eyes while my shoulder was still gripped.'
Ryouta: "WHY!! Then, don't give up."
Takuto: "Reluctant Ryouta."
Ryouta: "Because of what!"
Takuto: "...---I should face the music."
Ryouta: "Eh?"
Takuto: "A man who commits a crime must be reprimanded for it."
Ryouta: "What crime? What are you talking about?"
Takuto: "I killed my father."
Ryouta: "!?"
'Ryouta's hand trembles greatly, and he releases me.'
Ryouta: "Ta...Takuto. What did you say...?"
'Ryouta stared in blank surprise and I started laughing. Self-torment and a little relief. I was able to finally confess to having concealed it for a long time. '
Takuto: "I've released my past."
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
Takuto: "After my parents' death, it was necessary to be received by my grandmother. Afterwards, it was necessary to stay with a distant relative. I received the sexual harassment."
Ryouta: "Takuto...!?"
Takuto: "Please listen. Touching and licking my body was usual. As for him, the person who had become my father-in-law insisted, 'Play' on it. The 'playing' escalated. I was made to ejaculate while he was looking. I obeyed. It could do nothing but obey. I didn't have the power to fight. One night I broke."
Takuto: "...That was Christmas Eve. I told him that I wanted to enter a boarding school. Of course, I wanted to run away from life with him, but I actually wanted to go to school. He lost his temper and I was hit many times. He tried to violate me for the first time. It was scary. I raged desperately. I heard only of the sound of the fireplace and the wind when I noticed I did not hear that person's voice. I did not understand what occurred. I noticed the smell of blood and felt dizzy. However, I am not injured. And the fruit knife from the nearby table was in my hand. Delirious, I stabbed him to death."
Ryouta: "Takuto----!"
Takuto: "I'm not done yet. Haishima was watching it. My memory was sealed to make me despair. To make me despair and sacrifice of my desire."
Ryouta: "Takuto. Do not talk any longer."
Takuto: "It's useless Ryouta. You'll hear it until the end. Already forgotten about Makita-san?"
Ryouta: "Takuto? Is it because of me that you say this?"
Takuto: "It's different. You were a substitute target for Haishima."
Ryouta: "I was a substitute?"
Takuto: Makita-san might certainly have been shocked and wanted to die but--
Ryouta: Therefore, I....!
Takuto: "It wasn't necessary for her to die if Haishima didn't approach her. She would have surely healed. Haishima killed Makita-san as a method to make me despair more along with the others"
Ryouta: "Others? Who?"
Takuto: "The girl from Arecshio who went missing. You remember? The criminal who your elder brothers were frantically searching for--it was Haishima."
'Ryouta did not move. I quietly shut a piano lid, and rose from my seat. '
Takuto: "You understand. The ringleaders are us."
Ryouta: "Ta...kuto..."
Takuto (bitter): "Everything....Haishima planned everything. To afflict...me. Therefore, I want to finish this."
Ryouta: "Finish..."
Takuto: "I don't want anyone else to get hurt. It's absolutely unforgivable that someone else's fate goes wrong because of me. Therefore, Ryouta...you must leave this pavilion."
Ryouta: "Such a thing won't happen. No!"
Takuto: "Leave!"
Ryouta: "No! I absolutely won't!"
Takuto (livid): "Ryouta. Did you not understand what I was saying."
Ryouta: "I understand. I understands, I leave, and I'll never see you again."
Takuto: "Even so, have not you understood yet??"
Ryouta: "It is Takuto that doesn't understand."
Takuto (surprised): "!?"
Ryouta: "I'm not good at anything if Takuto isn't there. I'm useless if there's no Takuto. There's no meaning if there's no Takuto. If Takuto remains here, I'll also remain. "
Takuto: "Ryouta!"
Ryouta: "I'm good as Takuto's 'Companion'. Therefore, I continued the band."
Takuto: "Ryo---"
Ryouta: "I'm asking, don't disappear."
Ryouta clings to Takuto and cries.
Ryouta: "Don't leave me alone. I...Takuto is important. Nothing is important except Takuto. I will also die with Takuto if you die here."
Takuto: "Ryouta..."
Ryouta (near tears): "I like Takuto. Please become only mine."
'Ryouta's lip came in succession with mine for a brief moment.'
Takuto: "Ryouta...."
'It was mysterious. There was no disgust at all though I was frightened. Instead, I seemed to cry.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...?"
Takuto (smiling): "Foolishness."
'I thought for a long time. What I would do if Ryouta really came to me in desire. The answer was here now. I----/'
Ryouta: "...Takuto."
Takuto: "Eh?"
Ryouta: "Can I kiss you again?"
'What are these feelings?'
Ryouta kisses Takuto
Ryouta: "Nn."
'Moreover, Ryouta's lip met mine. The tongue moves awkwardly, and it enters my mouth.'
Ryouta: "Nn..."
Takuto: "Ryo..."
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
'The lip parts again.'
Ryouta: "It is useless ... I. It's not possible to endure it any longer. I want to feel Takuto more. However don't want to be disliked by Takuto."
Takuto: "Gaki."
Ryouta: "It's different. Takuto is special...Takuto is different."
Ryouta: "...Is it...good?"
'I returned a kiss to the question instead of speaking. I began to notice it was never unpleasant like usual.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...'
Takuto: "Nn, nnn."
Ryouta: "Ta--...kuto."
'The tongue enters again, and it twines round in hesitation.'
Takuto: "Ryou--...nn...ha..."
'I was considering the meaning of the act that I was doing while moving my tongue. Ryouta is accepted now.'
Ryouta: "Taktuo...hnn..."
'Inexperienced kiss.'
'What am I doing? It is likely to become painful and cry, so why? I was pinned down to the floor at the next moment. There was horror when being held down by 'them' but there was no unpleasantness/ Ryouta's hand unbuttons my shirt and his lips are pressed to my chest.'
Takuto: "...Ah...ha...Ryou--...ta..."
'A wet tongue is pressed against my nipple many times. The pain runs through my chest to between my legs every time it's licked and I raise my voice. '
Ryouta: "Takuto...For a long time....imagined. The body temperature of Takuto...when I touch it, what kind of voice..."
'The tip of the tongue is strongly rubbed. The nipple on my chest began to become hard and trembles every time it's touch by Ryouta's tongue and pleasure extends there again.'
Ryouta: "[I want to feel after Kou for a long time.]"
'Neither the dislike, nor abhorrence, and nor horror. The mind was painful though it began to melt with pleasure.'
Takuto: *soft gasping*
Ryouta: "Takuto's skin is hot."
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryouta..."
'Ryouta's saliva shone along my chest.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...Takuto."
Takuto: "Ryou--...ta."
'Ryouta pulls down my trousers quickly and grips my leg. It was not scary.'
Ryouta enters Takuto
Takuto: "Eh...aaaa!!"
'Ryouta's penis enters inside quickly.'
Ryouta: "Ah, s-ssory...!? Are you alright?"
Takuto: "I'm fine. Just surprised..."
Ryouta: "Sorry...I..."
Takuto: "It's fine."
'I grabbed Ryouta's hair though I felt pain of the foreign-body. I began to understand the reason. Whether it was painful or not I begin to weep because I was able to touch Ryouta this way.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...!"
Takuto: *gasping*
'Ryouta enters further. Heavy numbness bites from my leg to the vicinity of my belly and I bite my lip instinctively.'
Ryouta: "Takuto, Takuto."
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryou--..."
'To say that it is not possible to endure it, Ryouta begins to move his waist mightily.'
Takuto: *gasping*
Ryouta: "Ta-...kuto...Ha...ahh..."
'I wanted you to enter more strongly.'
Takuto: "Ryouta...ku...ah..."
Ryouta: "Ta...kut...ngh...it's warm. Warm and...ah...pleasant."
'I wanted to cry because I wasn't able to be loved in this way up until now.'
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryou-...ta..."
Ryouta: "Ngh...Takuto...Takuto..."
'Ryouta's hand that gripped my leg was sweating. The inside rubs tightly every time Ryouta recklessly shakes his waist. Surely, I began to become accustomed to the violation. The wave that was numb became heavy and began to change into pleasure, crawling up my body.'
Ryouta: "Ta--..kuto...is it...good?"
Takuto: Idiot..!!
Ryouta: "I'm worried..."
Takuto: "Idiot!? Ahh...ha..."
Ryouta says that he can die happy now.
Takuto: "You...idiot..."
Ryouta: "I seriously like Takuto."
'Ryouta greatly holds my leg further and raises it. '
Ryouta: "Takuto...my..."
Takuto: *quick gasping* "Ryou--...ta..."
'Ryouta pushes in to me hot and hard several time. A hot wave crawls up to my throat every time.'
Ryouta: "I love...Takuto...Really...I...Takuto."
Takuto: "Ryo...uta..."
Ryouta: "Therefore...Please become mine...! "
Takuto: *quick gasping*
'I melt in pleasure for one second. Ryouta painfully narrows his eyes, and begins to move his waist recklessly. '
Takuto: "Ryouta...! Ah...haa...ahhh!"
Ryouta: "Takuto...!!"
'Ryouta's penis is pulled out. My waist trembles greatly, and painful numbness attacks it.'
Takuto: "Ah...AHH!!"
(white flash x2)
'Ryouta's semen scatters on my thigh. And, I reached the top almost at the same time.'
Ryouta: *panting*
'It hangs over me as Ryouta collapses.'
Takuto: *panting*
Ryouta: "Ta--...kuto." *panting*
'We were not able to speak for a while, and repeated a rough breath. The sky had been dyed to a red evening glow when looking out through the window and I gazed instinctively.'
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
'Ryouta clings unexpectedly. '
Ryouta clings to Takuto
Takuto: "Ryouta...."
Ryouta: "I love...Takuto...I want to feel after being Kou's for a long time. I want you to only be mine."
Takuto: "Ryouta..."
Ryouta: "When I was glossed over by him underground, I regret it, but...Takuto..."
Takuto: "That's good for now..."
Ryouta: "Takuto... I like Takuto's hair. "
'Ryouta's fingers are extended to my hair. The fingers that touch it awkwardly seemed to be dear now.'
Ryouta: "Smells good too. "
Ryouta: "First I was the merely yearning for the groovy senpai with such a good sound. I still remember the night that remark started an argument."
Takuto: "The remark started an argument...?"
Ryouta: "Hn."
'Ryouta smiled wryly.'
Ryouta: "The summer that I moved to that apartment. The night Takuto came back from the bar fight soaked."
Takuto: "!?"
Ryouta: "Takuto's shirt was transparent because it was wet at that time, I finally noticed it by myself. I desired Takuto."
Takuto: "Ryouta...."
Ryouta: "I really like all of Takuto."
Takuto: "It might be impossible."
Ryouta: "What? What's impossible?"
Takuto: "I am a murder."
Ryouta: "I know."
Ryouta: "To tell the truth, today I cannot understand what is correct any longer."
Takuto: "Eh?"
Ryouta: "I did not hate Takuto after your story was told. I was glad the sadness that Takuto shouldered was spoken."
Ryouta: "I certainly wanted to kill man who was touching Takuto. "
Takuto: "Ryouta..."
Ryouta: "What is right and wrong, who is bad? I'm surely a child if I cannot make such a judgment."
Takuto: "Even an adult doesn't understand."
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
Takuto: "Even I do not understand such a thing..."
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
'Therefore, Haishima probably has a reason for this but it is not possible to know. Ryouta was now important.'
Takuto: "I am not the man you yearned for. I'm dirtier..., a sinful man."
Ryouta: "Such a thing is a useless remark, Takuto."
Takuto: "Ryouta?"
Ryouta: "Takuto is Takuto. Playing the piano, singing, and working hard at the flower shop is Takuto. I won't come to hate Takuto no matter what it is."
'Ryouta laughs with a smile. Moreover, Ryouta's lip approaches. I shut my eyes, accepting it.'
They kiss again
'The lips are rougher than a little while ago, and the tongue entered at once. '
Ryouta: "Takuto...hnn...Taktuo..."
Takuto: "Ryou--...ta...! Hann...hnnn."
'I clearly felt myself becoming excited from the intense kiss and saliva began to overflow from the edge of my mouth. We however did not stop kissing.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...hnn..."
'Ryouta reached for my lower limbs before long.'
Ryouta: "I'm sorry...Takuto..."
Takuto: "It's fine."
'I laughingly licked the saliva that overflowed from Ryouta's lip.'
They start up again
'Ryouta's hand unexpectedly gripped my penis.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...where is it pleasant? Takuto...tell me..."
'Ryouta strongly traced the tip.'
Takuto: *gasping*
'My voice cannot endue while the tip is being rubbed by Ryouta's finger.'
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryou--...ku..."
Ryouta: "Takuto...here? Is this the place that Takuto feels?"
Takuto: *gasping/panting*
'Ryouta goes further. My penis grew, and began to blot transparent liquid every time Ryouta's finger moved.'
Ryouta: "Please say...Takuto. It's pleasant...please say..."
Takuto: "Ah...It is pleasant!"
Ryouta: "Really? Here?"
'Ryouta's hand crawls to the root, it descends, and is raised quickly.'
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryouta...it feels...good'
Ryouta: "...good..."
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryouta..."
'My penis trembles from pleasure because it has already become completely hard.'
Ryouta: "More...Takuto."
Takuto: *gasping*
'The finger moves strongly and it rubs. The liquid that overflowed from me twined round Ryouta's finger.'
Ryouta: "More...more...please tell me."
Takuto: "Ryo...uta..."
Ryouta: "Takuto...I've wanted...to do these kinds of things...for a long...time."
Takuto: "What are you saying, aah! Ryouta...! "
Takuto: *Gasping* "Ryou...ah."
'The tip was traced by the tip of a finger, and I opened my leg in response. '
Ryouta: "Takuto...Can I put it in?"
Takuto: "Aah--!!"
'It pushes in to the tip of Ryouta's penis. There is no pain, however, pleasure crawls up my waist.'
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryou...Ryou...ku..!"
'Ryouta's penis slowly enters. I instinctively open my legs again.'
Takuto: "Ugh...ha...ku..."
Ryouta: "Ta--...kuto...ngh...Takuto...!"
'Ryouta presses against my waist, gripping my thigh. And, it enters where even the limit is sure to be buried. '
Takuto: *gasping*
Ryouta: "Ta...kuto..."
'Strong pleasure extends to my whole body.'
Ryouta: "It is hotter than a little while ago. "
Takuto: "Ryouta...ah...ha..."
'My waist shakes every time he moves, and my breath stops in every case. I'm surely not being changed into vampire. I am man who still requests pleasure.'
Ryouta: "Takuto...!"
Takuto: *gasping* "Ryou...ta..."
Ryouta: "Takuto has tightened."
Takuto: "Ryou...aah...!"
'I seemed to melt. My waist was strongly shaken, and I sucked in a breath. '
Ryouta: "It's useless...so...I can endure."
Takuto: "Ryouta....kuu...Ryouta..."
'My thigh began to grow numb. '
Ryouta: "Moreover, already."
Takuto: *higher pitched gasping*
Ryouta: "Takuto...it's good."
Takuto: *gasping*
'I thought that the lower half of my body that kept being fascinated with pleasure was not mine. Ryouta quickens his movements. I cannot really express my opinion any longer.'
Ryouta: "Say it...Takuto...!"
Takuto: *gasping*
Ryouta: "Ta...kuto..."
Takuto: *gasping* "...Ryouta...I also..."
'I was attacked by a sense where heat gathers in my lower limbs.'
Takuto: "AAH----!!!"
Ryouta: "Ugh!!"
*white flash*
'Ryouta's waist splashed greatly, and the thing overflowed in me.'
Takuto: *panting*
Ryouta: *panting*
'Ryouta pulls out his penis with a rough breath.'
Takuto: *panting*
'It fell into my thigh and my leg trembled again.'
Takuto: *panting*
Ryouta (whispering): "Takuto...? You okay...?"
Takuto: "Such a thing...don't say it.."
Ryouta: "Ah...sorry..."
Takuto: "I'm just exhausted...don't worry."
Ryouta: "I'm sorry...it was crazy of me."
Takuto: "...don't concern yourself."
Ryouta shirtless in the piano room
Takuto (painfully): "Mah...ack!?"
'Immediately. The muscles in my whole body are attacked with pain.'
Ryouta: "Takuto? What did you do?"
Takuto: "It is ... It is nothing. Just dizzy form standing---!? Ugh."
'Something comes up from the inside of my throat and is caught by my palm. '
Takuto: (...!?)
'It was blood. Red sticky blood remained on my palm. '
Takuto: (Ah...)
'I desperately quieted my voice. I thought that Ryouta should never see this.'
Takuto: "I'm returning to my room.."
Ryouta: "Takuto..."
'I did not want to leave Ryouta's side. However, I was scared of this blood that I did not understand.'
Takuto: "Go to your room and take a shower."
Ryouta (happy): Ah!
'I laughed with Ryouta. However, the pain from a little while ago still continued. An unpleasant sweat covered my back. My throat dries up with every breath and I'm awfully hot. I wave as brightly as possible, laughing. I face the door, my legs trembling. '
*door opening*
Hallway - sunset
Takuto: "Uuuku."
'I dragged my legs down the hallway. Moreover, blood comes up from my throat again, but I bear it.'
(black screen)
'I, who had gone back into my room, lay in bed. I did not have the energy to take a shower. My whole body was hot as having been burnt. I shut my eyes hard without understanding what on earth had happened while wishing it would be settle when tomorrow morning came. '